emotions, Feel and let feel, Guilt, intamacy, Let People in, recovery, Selfcare, Therapy, Vulnerability

Hello Empath

I’m an overthinker An over lover I feel things deeply  I don't feel anything small I use my heart as a base to understanding I use my head to sort through emotions I don't see in black and white I see in every color of the rainbow There is not just right and wrong There… Continue reading Hello Empath

ADHD, DUI, Depression, Guilt, Jail, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, PTSD, recovery, Sentenced to Jail, Therapy, Vulnerability

Reflections of probation –

My long two years of probation are coming to an end in 25 todays In my Brain I worried, that if something happens and the un-just justice system pulls me back in for a small technicality, like a diluted test.. will it ever end? My heart, is so tired of this fight- I have given… Continue reading Reflections of probation –

ADHD, DUI, Depression, Insomnia, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, PTSD

A note to the sleepless…

You’re tired, but you can't sleep. Your head won't calm down, and you shoulders won't ease up. You grind your teeth and repeat over and over “just fall asleep” but it isn’t working like it used to. You wonder what time it is now, illuminating the screen on your phone, knowing that’s not going to… Continue reading A note to the sleepless…

Depression, emotions, Guilt, Letter to my guilt, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, projections, PTSD, recovery, Therapy

A letter to my Parents

I was asked to write a letter to my parents, so that I could express my emotions fully to them. My therapist and I had scheduled a session so that I could ask them how they felt when I was arrested, put in Jail for 10 days, and dealing with my DUI in general. I… Continue reading A letter to my Parents

ADHD, DUI, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Sentenced to Jail

The Sentencing

"I understood myself, only after i destroyed myself, and only in the process of fixing myself, did I know who I really was" -Sade Andria Zavala It was a 9 am appointment time for my sentencing hearing. I was wearing business attire, a white shirt and blazer, and low wedge heels. I wore my hair… Continue reading The Sentencing

ADHD, DUI, Panic Attacks, Anxiety

An Avalanche of Anxiety

My first debilitating panic attack I encountered was when I was in college. I had a friend who was pregnant but somehow kept it a secret from our close circle of friends, she was in serious denial about her situation and didn’t tell me until she was 7 months in, and was having some issues.… Continue reading An Avalanche of Anxiety