ADHD, DUI, Depression, emotions, Family, Guilt, Insomnia, Jail, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, PTSD, recovery, Sentenced to Jail, Therapy, Vulnerability

The Cost of a DUI

In exactly two weeks I will be enjoying my first joint, in two years.... while I ponder that moment, let me do some reflecting on the cost of a DUI- financially and personally. I will be free of the "system", the system that prides it's self on justice. I committed a crime, yes, a terrible… Continue reading The Cost of a DUI

emotions, Feel and let feel, Guilt, intamacy, Let People in, recovery, Selfcare, Therapy, Vulnerability

Hello Empath

I’m an overthinker An over lover I feel things deeply  I don't feel anything small I use my heart as a base to understanding I use my head to sort through emotions I don't see in black and white I see in every color of the rainbow There is not just right and wrong There… Continue reading Hello Empath

ADHD, Depression, emotions, Feel and let feel, Guilt, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, projections, recovery, Selfcare, Therapy, Vulnerability

Love songs

Do you ever hear a love song About two souls meeting? It's beautiful and sad at the same time, Two souls colliding, one lost without the other Do you ever think of yourself as both souls? Having come together with the part of you, that makes you happy The beauty of being with that soul… Continue reading Love songs

ADHD, Depression, emotions, Feel and let feel, intamacy, Let People in, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, PTSD, rape, recovery, Selfcare, SOS, Therapy, Vulnerability

Intimacy

I haven't had sex in two years. I decided after getting my DUI and breaking up with my rebound-boyfriend, that I was going to take the next two years and dedicate them to myself. I was placed on probation for two years, so two years of sobriety and abstinence sounded like a good duo. Now… Continue reading Intimacy

Depression, emotions, Guilt, Letter to my guilt, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, projections, PTSD, recovery, Therapy

A letter to my Parents

I was asked to write a letter to my parents, so that I could express my emotions fully to them. My therapist and I had scheduled a session so that I could ask them how they felt when I was arrested, put in Jail for 10 days, and dealing with my DUI in general. I… Continue reading A letter to my Parents

ADHD, DUI, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Sentenced to Jail

The Sentencing

"I understood myself, only after i destroyed myself, and only in the process of fixing myself, did I know who I really was" -Sade Andria Zavala It was a 9 am appointment time for my sentencing hearing. I was wearing business attire, a white shirt and blazer, and low wedge heels. I wore my hair… Continue reading The Sentencing