The cage

A journey I wandered upon myself entombed in iron caging and glass walls on all sides Bars built to hold a wild animal- a container with no privacy or escape I looked through the bars at the "me" stuck inside A desperate, desolate, distant version of myself All the color and light her eyes had…

The relapse

Depression is no easy feat, My body reminds me something isn't right What's going on in my head, what's going on I feel unbalanced, and there is so much I want to do, I just cant get myself there I went to therapy, and on arrival I was so emotional I feel off, like I've…

Well Hello 2019

Learning from my past, making new goals

It’s not for you

After a few months of being sober, all these thoughts filled my mind of all the times I had let myself try to change for the man I was dating. All the things they said, that I didn't notice at the time. The thoughts came back in waterfalls, flooding my mind, I noticed I let…

Vulnerability

I was so nervous about the session with my parents. I don't know why I thought the experience would be different. I project feelings on people. I thought that my parents would express that they feared for me and they they would be really disappointed in me for all that I have put them through.…

A letter to my Parents

I was asked to write a letter to my parents, so that I could express my emotions fully to them. My therapist and I had scheduled a session so that I could ask them how they felt when I was arrested, put in Jail for 10 days, and dealing with my DUI in general. I…

It never truly goes away

When it all comes back It all started when I attended a new Orientation for a program I was being placed on for probation. I had to report in the middle of the day on a wednesday for a 2 hour orientation. They set us up in the same meeting room I was in the…