I haven't had sex in two years. I decided after getting my DUI and breaking up with my rebound-boyfriend, that I was going to take the next two years and dedicate them to myself. I was placed on probation for two years, so two years of sobriety and abstinence sounded like a good duo. Now… Continue reading Intimacy
A journey I wandered upon myself entombed in iron caging and glass walls on all sides Bars built to hold a wild animal- a container with no privacy or escape I looked through the bars at the "me" stuck inside A desperate, desolate, distant version of myself All the color and light her eyes had… Continue reading The cage
While I was in jail, I tried to find interesting things to read, I would pick up a book off the limited rack, and the ladies in my enclosure would throw non-sense supersitions that if you didn't finish a book, you would end up back in jail. I'm not superstitious, but I headed the warning… Continue reading The Storm
Depression is no easy feat, My body reminds me something isn't right What's going on in my head, what's going on I feel unbalanced, and there is so much I want to do, I just cant get myself there I went to therapy, and on arrival I was so emotional I feel off, like I've… Continue reading The relapse
Recently I have been feeling so off I cry, and wonder why I feel off, why can’t I feel happy. I feel pain, though my whole body, like a headache that just lingers and wont go away, but this one has been here for over a year, and though it seems sometimes the pain fades,… Continue reading Have I lost myself?
Learning from my past, making new goals
You’re tired, but you can't sleep. Your head won't calm down, and you shoulders won't ease up. You grind your teeth and repeat over and over “just fall asleep” but it isn’t working like it used to. You wonder what time it is now, illuminating the screen on your phone, knowing that’s not going to… Continue reading A note to the sleepless…