...I was sinking at first... I would try to grasp out for my friends, family or any relationship I had with someone,to prove to myself that i had my life under control, I would beg for reassurances where there were none ... I had washed upon a shore... Trying to pick up the pieces of… Continue reading The desert
I recently read an article posted by Forbes Magazine. It was about Kratom users, their stories, and whether or not the drug/supplement is dangerous. I was writing a response via email, and decided I would take it to my blog to see if anyone else has used it, if it helps them or not, and… Continue reading Kratom- Dangerous or Medicinal ?
Learning from my past, making new goals
You’re tired, but you can't sleep. Your head won't calm down, and you shoulders won't ease up. You grind your teeth and repeat over and over “just fall asleep” but it isn’t working like it used to. You wonder what time it is now, illuminating the screen on your phone, knowing that’s not going to… Continue reading A note to the sleepless…
After a few months of being sober, all these thoughts filled my mind of all the times I had let myself try to change for the man I was dating. All the things they said, that I didn't notice at the time. The thoughts came back in waterfalls, flooding my mind, I noticed I let… Continue reading It’s not for you
I was so nervous about the session with my parents. I don't know why I thought the experience would be different. I project feelings on people. I thought that my parents would express that they feared for me and they they would be really disappointed in me for all that I have put them through.… Continue reading Vulnerability
When it all comes back It all started when I attended a new Orientation for a program I was being placed on for probation. I had to report in the middle of the day on a wednesday for a 2 hour orientation. They set us up in the same meeting room I was in the… Continue reading It never truly goes away