ADHD, Depression, emotions, Guilt, Insomnia, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, recovery, Selfcare, SOS, Therapy

The relapse

Depression is no easy feat,

My body reminds me something isn’t right

What’s going on in my head, what’s going on

I feel unbalanced, and there is so much I want to do, I just cant get myself there

I went to therapy, and on arrival I was so emotional

I feel off, like I’ve lost myself

But where am I, the old me, the happy me, where did it all go

We discussed options of combating the relapses of my depression. It starts with routine, and it continues with a downward spiral of not feeling worthy, of not making the time for me, and then the pain comes.

I think of times when I was good, when I was elated to get up and go to the gym. When I had groceries in my fridge, enough to eat and sustain myself, now I dread going to the store, I dread picking up my prescriptions that are supposed to help me.

Why cant that be easy, its just a trip to the store. But there’s people there, and All I want is my bed.

I’m performing better at my job than I ever have at any job in my entire life, but it seems like everything else, with my personal life is crashing down.

I was tasked at contacting a professional organizer, so that my house organization, living with ADHD would be manageable. I was tasked with the job of finding a housekeeper who can help to give me back some hours I feel I’m losing.

Anyone out there with ADHD and Depression go through this? What you done to climb out of hole? I m trying so hard to pull myself back, but i need some life hacks…

I’d love a little support

Your girl digging herself a hole of depression relapse asking for a ladder

– Vivian

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